In this year of our Lord, 2012, I resolve to trust and hope in God, my Savior, that He will make my way, and lead me to His ever-loving heart, using my life to His advantage and for His glory.
That's my New Year's resolution, in case you were wondering; I'm trusting and hoping in Him.
It amazes me how even simple words can, themselves, carry such contradictions. Their very nature propels me to wait, to ponder what is on the other side, and to live ready.
Let me just say that I have no idea what my future holds. I know God does though, and that's what matters. He's created a great life for me, and I’m so blessed. I’m still a little scared, but I’m also very hopeful. I feel like that’s one of the greatest gifts God has given humans; we can have hope that someday, all the bad things will be mended, and our loved ones will feel God's great goodness rain down on them unceasingly. I think we begin to recognize God's grace through our suffering, but I know that He absolutely loves to see us happy too.
There are a lot of changes coming this year. That's true every year, but I feel it particularly now. I'll be graduating in May, and I have no idea where I'll go from here. Also, new people will take part in my life, and old friends will leave it. I'm not ready to say goodbye to anyone, but I know that God has it all worked out; He's just biding His time, waiting for the opportune moment. :) Right now, I can say that I trust Him completely. I hope that I can say it when these changes occur. I've seen His hand in my past, and I'm positive it'll be there in my future.
I’ve often wrestled with questions, feeling like a failure if I don’t come up with an answer. Tonight, I think it’s alright to leave thoughts and feelings unresolved; maybe those are themselves the answer. Not knowing, and yet, knowing. Again, with an endless stream of seeming contradictions, God comes and makes me shake my head in wonder. I hope to always wonder at the ways that He works, and never become like marble in my beliefs and feelings towards others.
Well, that's it for now. Remember to trust and hope in God; He cannot and will not disappoint you. :)